When Did This Happen?!

October 29, 2009 at 10:44 am Leave a comment

As I was running this morning (my last run before the half marathon on Saturday!), I had a truly insane thought and wondered to myself if anyone might see me run and think to themselves, “Shouldn’t that girl be in school right now?” I warned you it was crazy and I’m certainly not fooling anybody. I’m nowhere near school-age anymore, at least in the tradional sense, but sometimes I still think of myself like that… a girl instead of a woman…’woman’ sounds so old. Never mind the fact that I’m married, 30 years old with two children. When did this happen? When did I get this old, with all this responsibility? It doesn’t help that sometimes I have dreams that put me back in high school, going to class or playing basketball (I don’t miss a shot by the way:). I mean, I’m closer to 40 now than 18. Let’s not think about that too much…how depressing.

Anyway, although this whole age thing and adulthood sometimes seems to have snuck on me, I am more comfortable now in my own skin than I ever have been. I don’t know how I got to where I am so fast, but I am glad to be here. Under no circumstances do I wish I were 18 or in college again…I’m perfectly happy – elated really – to be a wife to Jarred and a mom to Blakely and West. All I’m saying (or trying to) is that it’s weird to realize I’m a grown-up when half the time I don’t feel qualified.

And those are my deep thoughts this morning!